My Addiction

I was only in the seventh grade when I became an addict. No, it wasn't anything bad like crack or cocaine. I was addicted to shoes. I bought my first pair of jordans in the seventh grade and felt so much excitement that day. I never felt anything like it. It was like a high. Not that I know what getting high feels like. I knew I had to feel it again so I quickly went home and began my long research on shoes. I learned more about shoes in that one day of research than I did in my past eleven years of existence. I knew which shoes Michael Jordan wore himself and why they were more significant than other shoes he didn't wear. I even memorized the dates for future shoe releases. I began marking my calendar to remember when my favorite pairs came out. I was so addicted to shoes the next couple of years I even had it set as my wallpaper for everything, from my phone to my desktop. I was so obsessed with shoes at one point, I once camped out fourteen hours from ten in the morning to midnight just to get them. It was freezing cold but I didn't care, I just wanted to feel that rush again. As I grew up, though, the rush began wearing off as I bought shoes. Eventually, it got to the point where I just started questioning myself, "Was this really worth all that time and money?" When I began thinking that, I knew I was done with shoes. I could no longer justify spending that much money and time on shoes that I never wore. Plus, it became harder than ever to get the shoes I wanted. More and more people began buying shoes but they didn't buy it because they were addicted like me, they bought it just to resell later on at ridiculous prices. This really made it difficult to get shoes because people were willing to pay those insane prices so more and more people began buying shoes to resell as well. I had collected up to nearly fifty pairs of shoes before I decided to enter rehab for my addiction and began selling my shoes to my friends and strangers I met on craigslist. I don't even know what's going on with shoes now. I rarely google about shoes now, compared to a couple of years when I would literally google about shoes every single day. I actually do miss that feeling I felt whenever I got a new pair of shoes, though. I guess I'll always have a love for shoes even if I try to quit.