Growing up

So I'm pretty sure by now most if not all of us are already 18 which means we are adults. Its crazy to look back at it and think that time flies by a lot faster than we realize. I don't know if you guys feel this too, but I feel like some of us grew up too fast. Either cause we were forced to or that was just who we were.

For me it was both; from the time I was a little kid all the way until now, I always wondered why I didn't have the same mindset as some of my friends and most of my peers. My thinking and analyzation of life and everything in general was always so much more in depth than everyone I hung out with. It was also partly because I was such an emotional person too, probably everything I did tied in with my emotions which was always a pain in the ass. Even in high school while everyone was out partying and enjoying the life of being a teen, I was at home planning out my future and how ready I was to get out of high school. By my sophomore year I already had the next 15 years of my life planned out. I was to graduate high school, get my Bachelor's degree by the time I was 22 then go to med school and get my Ph.D by the time I was 26 then open my own clinic by my 30's. The fact that I already had my life planned out made me feel like I was out of the norm in high school, like who the hell plans there whole damn life when there barely old enough to get their license? Anyways, I was obsessed for THE LONGEST TIME about making sure my "15 year plan" went accordingly, but my whole high school experience was pretty shitty so as you guys can probably predict that I was already going off track.

I was so obsessed with being a perfectionist that I never got to stop and be the teenager that everyone else was, at times I did get jealous when I saw so many of my peers just going out and having fun cause I just always thought "Why can't I be like that and just have fun?". At the same time, I'm also glad that I had this type of mindset and that I grew up too fast because it helped me transition easier from high school to college and the real world; many of my friends and peers still have a hard time letting go of their high school life. So for now I guess I'm just trying to make up for all the fun I missed out on and the pleasures in life that don't require sex, drugs or alcohol (and a lot of money, you know us college kids are on a tight budget haha) just the simple stuff. Let me know if you guys feel the same way too cause I feel like I'm the one that feels like a 30 year old stuck inside a 18 year old's body :P

P.S. I hope I don't come off as a know-it-all or as arrogant cause I don't mean to come off that way, just trying to express my thoughts!